Monday, February 15, 2010

Life Goes On

I feel like the days are marching by swiftly.  And although I've been doing what I said I would do, I have to say, I'm not feeling much different.  Could be due to a RA/Fibromyalgia flair that I'm just coming off of.  During the heavy snow (and boy was it heavy - about 4 feet in 5 days) I was pretty much in gridlock.  My body was often in a fetal position with my hands locked.  My only exercise were trips to the bathroom.  Didn't even go upstairs to sleep.  My arms were hurting so bad, it was hard to type.  It was hard to hold the phone.  I was in too much pain to really care about being online or holding the phone.  But when it interferes with holding my books, that's the last straw!!   I also had the infamous brain fog that goes with Fibro.  I couldn't remember simple names or important times in history.  Such as watching a Marie Antoinette movie and knowing events were wrong, but not being able to explain it.  Scary for a writer.

Obviously doing better today, although sleeping a lot.  And although I'm sticking to WW, I'm STARVING!!  lol I eat something that at one time filled me up, and two hours later....hungry.  That often happens after I've been on program for 3-4 weeks, and sometimes that's my downfall.  So I'm trying to be creative with the snacks or whatever I need to tide me over.  Skim milk is a great inbetween snack for me, and one I need anyway.  Some type of protein usually helps me until the next meal.

I'm not saying it's a down day because I'm actually doing better.  I'm not saying it's an up day because there's so much more to do and to overcome.  I'm saying it's going by too quickly and I'm afraid of not accomplishing my goals.

But whatever happens, know that I will persevere.  Pushing myself is the only way to get through those times when impossible seems to be the only answer....and it's not.  Impossible is for Bisquick pies.  And look what happens to them!

1 comment:

  1. Debra,
    I hope each day you are better... I have fibro too and I know exactly how you feel. Hang in there.